a favorite photo

i love so many things about this photograph by henri cartier bresson.

thankful

awhile ago amanda posted this quote from six feet under…

(david is talking to his dead father, Nathaniel)

nathaniel Sr: You aren’t even grateful, are you?

david: Grateful? For the worst f****** experience of my life?

nathaniel sr..: You hang onto your pain like it means something, like it’s worth something. Well, let me tell ‘ya, it’s not worth s***. Let it go. Infinite possibilities, and all he can do is whine.

david: Well, what am I supposed to do?

nathaniel sr.: What do you think? You can do anything, you lucky bastard, you’re alive! What’s a little pain compared to that?

david: It can’t be that simple.

nathaniel sr.: [putting his arm around David and pulling him closer] What if it is?

i've been feeling sort of david-ish. thanksgiving came around and i wasn't feeling so grateful. but i do know i have things to be thankful for. little things and big things.

i hope everyone had a wonderful thanksgiving and ate lots of turkey. xo

so jealous

i haven't been sleeping much lately.

i really love sleep. i need sleep. i really miss sleep.

this little pup of mine has no such problem. the other day i was sorting my cds on the floor when she got in my lap and went immediately to sleep. she rarely does this but when she does... well it's the cutest thing ever.

and the other morning it was really chilly and i woke up to find harlow had snuck under the covers. she usually sleeps in her bed on the floor or at the foot of the bed on a little fuzzy blanket. but i didn't mind.

cutest pumpkin in the patch

i had to take her home with me.

ten things

1. lying under a pile of heavy blankets
2. cool breezes and crunchy autumn leaves
3. the puppy sighing in the next room
4. priesthood blessings
5. quiet mornings
6. warm cups of lavender mint tea
7. hot showers
8. twinkle lights
9. handwritten notes
10. precious, precious sleep

i was going to call this a happiness list but really it's a list of ten things that have brought a few moments peace. i'm trying to find more of them.

beautiful words

I've been reading a lot lately and the other day I rediscovered these beautiful words by rainer maria rilke.

"You mustn’t be frightened…if a sadness rises in front of you, larger than any you have ever seen; if an anxiety, like light and cloud-shadows, moves over your hands and over everything you do. You must realize that something is happening to you, that life has not forgotten you, that it holds you in its hand and will not let you fall...
bear in mind that sickness is the means by which an organism frees itself from what is alien; so one must simply help it to be sick, to have its whole sickness and to break out with it, since that is the way it gets better. In you so much is happening now; you must be patient like someone who is sick, and confident like someone who is recovering; for perhaps you are both. And more: you are also the doctor, who has to watch over himself. But in every sickness there are many days when the doctor can do nothing but wait. And that is what you, insofar as you are your own doctor, must now do, more than anything else."

and this morning i found these words in my horoscope:

"...all of creation loves you very much. Even now, people you know and people you don't know are collaborating to make sure you have all you need to make your next smart move."

true or not it's nice.